Her Story LIves - Help for Women Affected by Pornography Addiction

A little different.

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Thursday, February 21, 2008

My story is a little different from those listed. As a young woman in my 20's, I was depressed and very confused. I posed for several pictures from different photographers over several years. It was a sad time, and I can honestly say looking back that every man and woman I came across in that business was an unhappy lost soul who masked what they were doing as being glamorous, creative, financially lucrative, or some other excuse. I have never been so low in my life. I am free of that now and have drastically changed my values and my life, but even though that was 20 years ago, I seem to still be searching for the pieces of my spirit that were so tragically torn away from me during those years. It hurts, but there is recovery.

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Thank you all for sharing your stories. I've been feeling so alone in a sex-less porn addicted marriage. It hurts so bad to want to have intamcy with your husband and to know that I can't compete with the images that he sees in the pron that he watches. It breaks my heart. Again, I thank you all for sharing your stories.

Posted at May 24, 2008 3:41 AM

Thank you so much. For being so honest, and also for being someone who saw through the filth and changed her life. I also can see how easy it is to fall into that bad place....life can get twisted. I am saying that because when I found out my husband was looking at pornography...here I am 20, 120 lbs, blonde, hit on alot, I mean...I recognize people saw me as very beautiful, I had always been a little insecure, and my husbands porn addiction made me even more insecure, and yet...I found myself so betrayed by what he was doing, I thought, I give up, I saved my virginity to you, I've been 100% true to you this whole marriage, I felt like saying forget it and taking up a job at a strip bar, or literally posing naked for porn myself...just cuz I was kinda losing my mind at that time, like,"I CAN BE JUST AS SEXY! I CAN BE WHAT YOU WANT. I CAN THROW AWAY WHAT SHOULD BE SPECIAL TO US, THE SAME WAY YOU DO. I CAN BE THOSE SAME GIRLS YOU TAKE YOUR TIME TO LOOK AT AND LUST FOR!" I was never very seriously considering it, but it crossed my mind that way. I knew it would be something I couldn't live with doing, nor did I want to lose my dignity or decency that way. But theres many traps to fall into as a woman as well to want to be sexy and do things we never thought we would. AGain, good for you to change your life, I am certain that must of taken strength and you should be proud of yourself.

Posted at June 3, 2008 5:13 PM

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