Wow, a place to in a sense, speak out loud about something that has been kept so secret for so long. I have never felt that it was my place to "air my husband's dirty laundry." But for so many years I felt so alone with the pain it created in my heart and in our marriage. I found out 5 years into our marriage that my husband was addicted to pronography. We are now 16 years into our marriage. I have watched him struggle with this and grow and become stronger. I felt that for so long it had something to do with me. It doesn't. I know that now. I can separate our relationship from his addiction. He has choices to make in his life. He chooses his future with me and our 6 children. He continues to make that choice everday that he avoids the temptation. The day that he chooses that evil over our life is the day that our marriage will end. He has moments of weakness, as we all do in some respect. But his goals and desire is us. I love him for all his efforts, I will owe him forever. I hope he continues to love me more then the addiction. I know there always has to be a guard around him. That will never change.

Labels: depression, emotional pain, honesty, Strengthening Our Marriage, Success